“Hold me! Hold me!”

My name is Kelley, and I am a stay-at-home mom of two sweet children. One of whom is pulling at my leg as I type this screaming, “Hold me! Hold me!”

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I’m new to fitness. Well, kind of new. I never was what anyone would call athletic. I was a band dork in high school. I really was very passionate about music. I love it so much, I thought that would be my major in college. I had every intention of getting a degree in music. I wanted to be a performance major. When I went for my audition, I bombed big time! The director of the department I would be in told me that she would recommend me for the music education program, but not performance. Needless to say, I was pretty crushed because I had spent over 10 years waiting for this moment. I decided to major in Political Science. I don’t really know where I came up with that especially considering that I had just changed my mind from music. I started school and stuck with Poli Sci. I transferred for my junior year and I joined the ROTC program. I guess this was the beginning of my physical training. I hadn’t even run a full mile until my freshman year of college. I could pass a PT test. I don’t really think that is all too impressive looking back, but at that point in my life, I was impressed.

I met my husband in 2003, we eloped in 2004, and I moved to Savannah. When he would leave for extended periods of time for work, I would spend a lot of time in the gym. I would lift a little bit, run on the tread mill, or the elliptical, but I really still had no idea about fitness. I was also terribly inconsistent. Fast-forward a few years…

In 2008, I gave birth to my daughter, our first child. I gained 40 lbs with that pregnancy. Her birth was terribly traumatic. My water broke, and I wasn’t at the hospital more than an few hours before they were putting me under general anesthesia and taking her via c-section. It was my worst nightmare come true. (I even took a bathroom break during my birthing class that covered c-sections because I was so sure I would have a natural delivery.) I woke up two hours later and had to go to the nursery to hold her. A few hours later, she was transferred to a NICU (Neonatal Intensive Care Unit) 45 minutes away at Memorial in Savannah where they were better equipped to handle her.

She was born on a Thursday. The Saturday following her birth, I was released. She spent 12 days there where they determined that she had brain damage and that it had occurred about a week prior to her birth. I was devastated. We moved just one week after her release from the NICU. We arrived in New York in October, she was born in August. (Because of the move, I stayed with my parents for a few weeks.) She began seeing a neurologist here, and he determined that she had microcephaly and would most likely need quite a bit of therapy.

Because I was in denial that there was anything wrong with my child, I didn’t contact early intervention services until she was almost a year old. That’s when she began receiving her therapy. She didn’t walk until 19 months old, and her she had and still has trouble doing tasks that “normal” children her age can do. Her biggest challenge, I believe, is her speech. She has apraxia. She’s a smart little girl, but she has a really difficult time expressing herself, and she is still often very hard to understand.

I came within six pounds of my pre-pregnancy weight only to find myself depressed and unable to motivate myself. I gained an additional seven pounds. I was the heaviest I’ve ever weighed in my life. I never wanted to have children again, but in 2010, I found myself pregnant with my son. I was able to have a natural, unmediated delivery with him, and I also gained 40 lbs with his pregnancy. I knew that I needed to lose weight. I was determined to do it this time!

A friend from high school contacted me a couple of weeks before his birth, not knowing I was pregnant, and asked if I wanted to Β join her challenge group. I told her that I would love to do a challenge group, but that I would have to wait until after I had my son. In May 2011, my son was born. In July 2011, I began my first workout program P90X. I finished the 90 days. While doing P90X, my coach asked me to try Shakeology. So I signed up to be a coach for the discount. I love it! I love the energy it gives me. I began drinking it daily. After I finished P90X, I asked what I should do next. I tried Turbo Fire (which totally changed my mind about fitness and working out). Then I tried Les Mills Pump. I lost all my baby weight, but then I realized that it wasn’t just about losing weight. I had gained so much more in the way of confidence I realized that I actually really enjoyed working out!

In December 2012, I got certified as a Turbo Kick Instructor. In January 2013, I began the Ultimate Reset. I decided when I started that I could actually coach. I realized that I had something to offer people. I could understand where people were coming from. I understand what it’s like to look in the mirror and despise what you see in the mirror. I felt ugly, unmotivated, depressed. I didn’t even feel like a human. The only thing I had been able to do, and do well since my daughter’s birth is take care of my children. I have so much more to give now.

In March 2013 I became certified to teach Insanity. In July 2013 I passed my test and became a NASM certifed personal trainer. I’m so excited to learn more about the human body. It is truly an amazing structure.

What I have now learned over the past few years is that after “giving up” music, I was lost. (There’s a lot more to the story than that, but I’ll start with this, and we’ll get to know each other as I continue blogging.) I really had no direction in my life. I graduated college and worked in a bank. I really got no gratification from either of those things. It’s just what I was supposed to do. I love pushing myself, and I love helping other reach their goals. I love that I’ve found something that I loved as much as music. In fact, I get to use music in the formats that I teach, so it’s almost as if my time spent learning and practicing music was just preparing me for that. I still get to play my flute and sing in church. So I still get to use those skills, and I love that.

If you’re looking for some direction or help with focus and direction when it comes to your health and fitness. If you feel like you’ve tried everything only to find that you weren’t able to lose weight or achieve the goals you set for yourself, please contact me. We can do this together!

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